Lifted My Soul

Have you ever been punched in the gut so hard it takes your breathe away?A couple of months ago I was hit. It took my breathe away. It was a hard hit. As soon as I felt my breathe coming back I was hit again. I had lost my joy and couldn't seem to get it back. I just wanted to breath again. God told me a couple of weeks ago " it is done ". I thought "cool, tomorrow I will wake up and I'll have joy again!" It didn't work that way. I have learned that I had to do the right thing even if I didn't feel like it. I had to forgive and be forgiven. I have to seek HIM in all things. Through this all I haven't spent much time seeking HIM. I have prayed for the one that threw the punch but that is about all.
Today I went to church. It is Easter Sunday so I knew things would be different and the place would be packed. I almost didn't go. As I sat there and watched everyone file in, God told me to look to the right. There she was---my God-given sister. She was late and God sat her right on the front row. I thought----she looks nice today and I sure miss her. As the service went on God started to deal with my heart. Actully it start sometime in the middle of the night because I woke up with her on my mind. HE told me, 'I need to ask her for her forgiveness', 'tell her you are sorry', 'tell her you love her and she will always be your sister'. Well my first thought was ' I need her forgiveness!' 'No Lord, I think not.' HE would not leave it alone. HE was all over me. I was shaking inside and out. I didn't want to say those things and to go over there I would have to walk across the front of the church with I have no idea how many people watching. Pastor was talking about something and then there was going to be another song. I told God I can't go with Pastor talking; God said when they start singing-----YOU GO.
The song started-----I got up----started walking----I almost ran. God helped me get the words out. Before I left my seat I felt the healing begin. I asked her to forgive me. I told her 'I loved her and she always be my sister.' I held on to her and cried. I didn't want to let her go but I knew I had to. As I walked back to my seat I knew I was SET FREE and my JOY was back!!
I don't know what God has in store for us but HE knows! I don't know where HE will lead me. I don't know if I will feel sad anymore about this all but I know the ONE who does know! He has a plan---Jer.29:11-14 and it is all good----Romans 8:28!!!