So Long

It has been so long since I have blogged about anything. So much has happened to say where do I start? I have went back and read my blogs and now I wonder why do I leave the "resting place" God wants me to live in....Why do I stop seeking Him? Why do I stop trusting Him with my hurt and pain? Why do I feel like I'm never going to get things right? I hate this feeling more than anything in life....What happened to the freedom I once lived in....why would I walk away from that?? I'm feeling alittle lost these days....My heart hurts today and I need you Jesus....