Butterfly

I love to listen to Joyce Meyer in the morning. Somethings I listen to over and over again. Lately I have been listening to being transformed. She talks about how when we ask God to bring a change in us and when He does that then, we usually will whine about the change. She talks about a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. We don't know what kind of pain might be involved with that process but there is going to be a change. A transformation will take place and a new thing we will have.

2009 was a changing year for me. I have thought about how much whining I did in the process. How many times did I ask God to take it all away? Did I just live in that moment and let God mold and change me? How many times did I thank Him for this change and His love that got me through? There were times I whined, times I cried, times I praised, times I thanked, and times I just sat in the mist of it all. As I look back there are things I regret saying or doing and things I regret not saying or doing. Much was learned about myself and God's love in this year.

As a caterpillar is captive to the ground, a butterfly is free to go where it may. How willing are we to be transformed? To be the butterfly God wants us to be.....

Change

The change of times...the change of seasons...the change of ages...our lives are always changing. My life has changed so much in these last couple of years. My job has changed 4 times in 5 years. My husband is going on his 3td deployment in 5 years. Mom has moved back to Az. Dad came for a short time. I have said 'good-bye' to two dear people in my life. My kids seem to grow way to fast these days. There were times I thought the changes were to much for me. I've wanted to stop time and I have wanted to speed it up. I have faced some demons in my life and yet I know I have more to go. Through it all God has been right there with me....telling me to hold to His unchanging hand.

In my heart I know there is much more change to come. All I can do is hold His hand!

Thanks you Lord that you always hold my hand.